#31 Happy Easter!

Here's wishing everyone a Blessed Easter! Today marked a change in my life, again. I came to realise half way through the service that, in p4 which is in 2003 if i counted properly, I accepted Lord Jesus as my personal Lord and Savior into my life. And today marks the 6 years of relationship that I have with my God.

I personally feel that I've grown a lot through my walk with Him. In the beginning years, i still was the same person. Walking in and out of the church doors, making no progress. No devotional life either. It was just, "Oh i love God", "Goodbye for now, see you next Sunday." God was seen as the, Sunday Church I/C to me. In other words, life felt so meaningless. Maybe just before PSLE I started to believe that I have a faithful God but I hardly even notice Him in action. I didn't even bother to, i guess.

In 2007, I took the biggest step of Faith and decided to commit my life back to Him. I wanted a change, desperately. I felt so empty but holding such a pretense in front of everyone else. Serving in Agapeland became an endless chore. I enjoyed children but they didn't know me, i didn't know them. I didn't know how to handle them. But i I only enjoyed to see the smiles on their faces. But everything changed after the 1/1/2007, where I got baptized. I decided to change for the better. To feel re energized and to also start a proper devotional life. To always place Him #1 in my life. It was only from 2007 where i began to see change.

Change. In the way i behave and think. Oh wells, you might say that allows people to take advantage of me. I agree. But nothing seems better but to have a really strong relationship with Him. I just go, "Jesus, HELP!" Other times I'll turn to someone and say, Can I have a hug? Its through the years that I feel He's ever so present. That I'll be nothing without Him. Thus, I thank God for every Good Friday and Easter. It is also at Easter where I can say I've served Him for 6 years today. Started off as a projectionist then to a K1 helper then to the toddlers group. Observed the way they handled things and before I knew it, I'm there today not helping all the time but teaching and preparing lessons for God's little ones. I guess Agapeland has molded me quite a fair bit. I looked at things from a different perspective and started becoming positive. It is also Agapeland that strengthened my Walk With God. When the week's been so lop sided and you've got to spend your Satuday/Friday preparing for the lesson and Sunday being spent at church and having less time for everything else. I know at the end of the day that..

He's the one who would strengthen me and help me make the lesson a more enjoyable one for the children and for myself. Sometimes especially with the younger group its so hard to get the message to them because they might not understand what you say but just the I Love You makes the world of difference.

Easter was different today. I would put aside Agapeland Party, but the service itself meant a lot to me, rather the worship. I focus all on Him and I was brought to tears when i realised how much He actually loves me and died on the cross for ME even though he didn't have to. WHO AM I? Another difference today was that I realised how much people love me and the extent they would go to, just for me. Aunty Jessica, someone i wasn't quite close to until recently at Facebook. She heard and saw my struggles that I hardly would share with anyone. I went up to the Agapeland's pantry to leave the cupcakes there and she came to find me just to give me a hug and say, "i love you, thank you for responding." As i hugged her, i guess everyone thought there was something that was wrong with me and i was struggling with to cope. But i remember sharing with her its nothing about the workload, or the sleepless nights but its about the CLASS. Just as i mentioned that i guess i was in tears again. But, God always comes to the rescue, with comfort and added strength. He always surrounds me with people that love me.

Here's wishing you a blessed Easter. Remember how Great Our God is!

Here's an old Agapeland song!

Celebrate Jesus celebrate
Celebrate Jesus celebrate
Celebrate Jesus celebrate
Celebrate Jesus celebrate

He is risen He is risen
And He lives forevermore
He is risen He is risen
Come on and celebrate
The resurrection of our Lord

He is risen He is risen
And He lives forevermore
He is risen He is risen
Come on and celebrate
Come on and celebrate
Come on and celebrate
The resurrection of the Lord