#62 Breathe

Yes, Breathe. There's just SO SO many things on my mind that I'm clueless on how to start. Or the basic, moving on. To be honest, these days that I've been going through ever since the 4th of August has been the darkest. I don't see a glimpse of light anymore, sadly. I've been through so much till it has changed me. Changed me so much that I've lost my hope. Every time things seemed to have brighten up, after a few hours, history repeats itself. Every time I see or read or hear something alone that line of news something in my heart loosens, trembling me that I've encountered something this close.

I'm sorry for being such a pain to those around me. To those who know and have been praying & counseling me, thank you. Even though I've not been transparent in sharing the happenings - I only did to one person. Please, forgive me. This isn't an easy time for me, and I really hope you'll understand.

I'll be back. When things have cooled down, when I've moved on & when I feel its past and have no clinging on, I'll pen how uncomfortable this situation has been. First things first, I'll learn how to Breathe.

Sometimes, we say breathe. But it just takes so much out of you. Like your entire lung got compressed to it's maximum, and it hurts so badly. You just need to let go, let go. But if you do, you'd explode.

Then what are we to do?

Tash, breathe. Keep the faith.