#83 Desert Birth

Despite it being 4plus in the morning, I realised I'm turning 16. As days past, its getting creepier. 'Cause I guess I've forgotten what a birthday is after all. So much so that I've to put a reminder to tell myself I'm growing up.

I guess this birthday is going to be the usual. Thus I'm dreading it. As in, everyone would just forget about cause they're busy with exams. Falls on the school day even more usual it would be with no Sunday School party like last's. At the same time, someone I thought I would never live without has walked out of my life. I totally don't want to turn 16.

Deep down, I want a "high-school" birthday with I guess I can consider a dream. Big many presents, hugs, surprises, balloons cakes or collage cards to know you've left a legacy from different groups of people, love, bday songs. Basically, high school movies, right? Or just, many someone(s) who would remember. I guess I can continue dreaming 'cause it feels like such things would never happen.

Who am I special to, anyway?
Wake up.