#109 A Whole New Beginning

Happy New Year!

Its kind of scary thinking how fast time actually flies. I really hope this year I'm able to keep close relationships instead of straining them. I really don't want to keep trying salvaging relationships that can't be saved anymore. I should spend more time building relationships to those who I know are close to me. 2010 feels a very uncertain year. My results, My commitments, my responsibilities, people and everything. Some part of me wishes that at least I can have a glimpse of the future - to know where I'm heading to or what I'll be doing in the future.

My biggest fear is tripping over wrong decisions and falling into my own grave. But at the same time I know, I'm big enough to make decisions and if its a wrong one, I'll have to live with it and its regrets. At the same time I know, everything's in God's hands and I have to just keep trusting me and asking Him to make all the situations clear so I know which door closes, and which door opens further.

I'm hoping for the best - with the results in 10days time. There isn't any point crying over spilled milk. Face it, I've done by best. I've studied. I don't want to keep worrying about everything under the Sun because it makes everything worse. Whatever the result, I'll choose to thank God for it because I know it was Him who gave me such results and I'll glorify His name.

Another new beginning would be joining St.James. I've realised in one way or another, children is my gifting and children ministry's my calling. Their smile puts a smile on my face. I hope to touch young lives in any way possible and so that I'll be able to reach out to the little ones and really bring them joy. St.James gave me that opportunity which I'm very grateful for. I've been opened into doors I thought would never open. I'm doing things I never believed I could do. The people are wonderful, & I feel so at home just being there.

I hope I'll be able to learn as much from this exposure and really make a difference in both the children's life as well as the staff. They're just a wonderful bunch of welcoming people. I'll talk more about my day 1&2 on the job, tomorrow.

Till then, have a good night
and here's wishing you a blessed new year!