I Give You My Heart;

I'm tired.
Tired of the routine.
Tied of trying to please everyone.
Tired of trying to stay on track but lagging behind, so so behind.
Tired of just putting expectations on myself, hoping to achieve them.

Tired of completing homework after homework, mostly overdue.
Tired of thoughts of wanting to do revision but never able to do them.

I'm Tired, Of Life.

School's just school. It's just an aimless drag. Days just go by, and the pile of work never seems to end. Sometimes i wonder whether i'll ever get the chance to stay on track knowing the topics in school yet having NO uncompleted work to do. I guess that's just a dream. And all i've been doing is honestly, sleeping. From time to time esp in Week 5/Week6 i've been trying to fight the drowsiness so that i wont make the pile rise, i guess I'm wrong. I also lose and end up going to bed, either for a few hours or just a little earlier. And it doesn't make me feel better when i get up.

I feel like i've wasted my time and darkness is here. I'm just lost. Unsure of what to do next. And no, i dont feel any better. I just don't want people to worry. But those around me would truly know, how I've been. Cold, Weak, Breathless (at times.) Esp with this cough, it makes me breathless and hurts my throat badly. Losing of breath isn't nice. Its actually scary. I've coughed so much, i feel like throwing up everything that's in me even more when i get breathless.

When would this end?