#97 What A Week!

There was just so many things slam packed this week and hey, I survived! Monday was prom and I've done my update for that. Tuesday was kind of like a rest day. Traveled all the way to Woodlands and spent the day with my Aunt & Geetha sweets. Despite feeling a little tired, I did enjoy myself. It was a out till night time. Home only at 11.

Wednesday was a day home till afternoon time. Headed over to Daddy's office after settling some stuff at Ion Orchard. Till today, I think Ion Orchard is the craziest place in Singapore. No, I totally hate that place. Its so crowded till you don't know where you're heading. Things there are "high-class" so yeah basically nothing I could buy due to the "heavy" prices. And besides, there's nothing that wonderful there other than for the Christmas tree with the Star Galaxy. Basically, Christmas season. Went traveling around town before picking Mum & Kash up and home it was.

Thursday was slightly different. We (My 2 Aunts, 2 cousins, Mum, Kash & Myself) went to Bugis.. which isn't as wonderful anymore. The people are even more unfriendly, I can hardly understand what they say as well. But everyone did enjoy ourselves since we were bonding with each other. From lunch at Swensens to Bugis Junction to Bugis Village and finally Little India for Dinner and met Daddy there. Lots of walking and also something very strange happened in the bus. A group of girls basically wanted to pick a fight with me. I was speaking to Geetha (facing her) & looking out of the window and this group of girls standing there in blue eyes kept staring back at me. As if i was staring at them. So basically, they were creating a commotion in the rather silent bus telling one another, "collect $ since got show... the china doll watching!" (Hey, I know Tamil okay!)

They got off the bus after and hopefully I'll never see them again. That night after Dinner was done it was a trip to the clinic for the H1N1 shot. :( x 6x10^23 I guess it was.. fine? Home to watch a little TV but I didn't quite feel like myself. So I went bed early. At 1230 to 345am, I felt so cold, so so so cold. I turned off the fan and began to shiver right there. It didn't stop at all. Time to wake the parents up, and everyone woke up. At 415, after the socks, jacket, nightwear and additional blanket the shivering stopped. I still felt cold though. At 5 I woke up again. This time I just felt really, really weak. Decided to take my temperature and it was sky high. Woke my parents up again. After medicine, back to bed.

I guess it was partly due to the shot and also because of all the tiredness building up to Thursday. I spent Friday resting at home gaining as much energy that I could. That was basically the week I had. For the weekends? I'll leave it to the next post.

See you then.

#96 PROM!

Prom marked one closure in my life; Secondary School. Besides all the madness of getting everything ready, I must say Secondary School ended well. At Prom all thoughts came gushing into me, of every single memory of KCP. And i realised, I'm really going to miss these years. Simply cause they were the best! The friendships forged, really caring teachers and how much I've grown through the years, its amazing!

Thank you councillors for a really great prom! It made everything memorable. I felt out of place at first, over-dressed maybe? But, hearing the comments and feeling a sense of security from the people around me made me feel better. I realised my life has been so colourful not because of the happenings around me but rather the people.

Days before the prom was crazy madness. It was the craziest weekend ever! Everything seemed to be piling up and I became so so so stressed. I spent 48 hours shopping - went to try 64 dresses and went to the changing room 37 times. I was sick of clothes and having to try them. Everything were either too big or the complete opposite, too small. I had to meet people, get other things settled (the class video, cupcakes, cds, posters), get my shopping done, parties & wedding & church to attend. It was really madness! I was so close to just getting priorities settled 'cause thankfully everything fell into place in the end.

Prom was great. Company was awesome. Food was awesome as well. Ivan brother did beatboxing, really wow! Dancefloor was wowwwwwww! Everyone was dancing! We only came in towards the end though, heh. The performance by the Sec1s was sweet and the emcees did a fantastic job!

A day that would always be remembered, :)
(& yes I guess all the pictures are in FaceBook!)

#96 Wind?

Actually, I've got lots to share.

Yet everything's happening so quickly,

most of the time I'm left speechless,

with thoughts and fears untold.

I guess that's me.

I shall just continue what I like doing best - bottling up my thoughts.

Will I explode soon then?

#95 Books, Food, Friends! (BFF)

The title explains it all. I truly enjoyed today so so so much. Other than the waking up @ 7 fact. Went over to Macs for breakfast before heading to the library. :) After meeting her it was a books date! I'm finally back on track with story books and back to the imagery world that i left a couple of months ago. Both of us combed the whole library for books. Found many many and borrowed them.

Walked through the fitness corner to play a little before separating paths cause I had to meet the librarians for lunch. I truly enjoyed myself and surely more to come! After meeting D & R & S we headed for lunch followed by ice cream. Parted with them when the clock was turning 5 and met daddy to go hunting.

Hunting for what? Prom dresses. But.. to no avail. There's still time though. My schedule's getting even tighter now, but yes. I'm enjoying the fun. :)

Goodbye!

#94 Day Out With <3

It was a wild adventure! From the southern ridges. We started off at the merong trail somewhere in the forested area opposite of HabourFront. We climbed 24 stories up, with the thousands of steps to see the beautiful see once we've reached the top. It was an amazing sight. Following which we went to Faber Park, which somehow reminded me of Ms Foo? Heh. The flowery balcony on top of a hill and lovely pathways. Since it was all interconnected our next stop was Henderson Waves, which was totally amazinggggg! As it we were so high above ground and the view was breathtaking! We were super high above the ground that we both kind of panicked.

After which, made our way down to the hilltop park (which I guess we kind of missed) and landed up at forest walk. The best ye worst part of the journey. YingYng attempted to make friends with the monkeys but i was just too terrified to walk past them. So to continue the walk we had to use the stairs, AGAIN. Matellic flooring + rain = slippery floor. Never the less we still had fun, got to to the Alexandra Arch. Thank God there were no lightning and also that the forest walk didn't have any trees covering us. Alexandra Arch wasn't a great sight though. And from there, we made it back down the stairs into the civilisation, which gave me a sense of relief. We made it! And now we were safe!

I enjoy such journeys and somehow strangely, it reminded me of this year's journey. The beginning was tough - getting used to the work and lessons and everything else - just like @ the 24 storey Megong Trail. But the scenery was wonderful. The "scenery" here would be the break now. From place to place every green place reminded me of something new, which is the successes and failures that I've faced this year. Through hardship, its when you see the fruits of labor, just like this journey & also, the O's journey.

#93 :)

A phase of my life has just passed and yes, time to open up once again.
The very happy me is back 'cause there's nothing to make me feel otherwise for the moment.
Things have come, things have gone.
But one thing remain, that's love.
As i look through my past entries, some were full of love yet others lack of it,
but hey, i'm back!

Its the happy me again.
I said i wanted to make it a everyday entry of the freedom now, but i've been to preoccupied with so many things that I've neglected my computer!
So yeah.
So i do my updates on my touch instead.

Back here again, soon! :)

#92 Stupid Me!

Someone, kill. me. now.
Why am i doing this to myself over & over & over again!
WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!
I just had a wonderfully wonderful day but i just ruined everything,
EVERYTHING!
'cause my mood has totally crashed thanks to MYSELF.
How stupid can I get!

I went into XX's profile,
I had to see XX's picture,
I had to see XX's comment(s),
& everything just made me feel shittier!

Why why why;
had i to do this!
:( x928323498740928419842874
From today, i pledge i wouldn't log onto FB as often anymore.

So what did I do today?
Nothing much but something so much to someone else.
I spent the day with Geetha,
Pizza for lunch + lazing around & movie marathon.

Love, to the max.
I miss days like these.
& i totally loved the company.

More tomorrow then.

#91 First 1/4 Day Freedom

As much as I possibly can, I'll try to organise this post. Currently. they're many thoughts running through my head and since I have lots of time now, its time i pen it down, as positively as I can.

Firstly, the O's are over. Huge relief. Yet, the results on the other hand? Let's not talk about it now. I've learnt so much during this season, through the laughter, joy, pain, anger, frustration & tears as well. It was a journey. I honestly can't tell how well I have done. But I know I've done my best. Now its time to trust Him to do the rest. Jesus brought me through. His faithfulness was ever so present. Its time to believe and have faith that there are situations where miracles do happen!

There are other issues as well, present, yet I have chosen to deny. I know somewhere in me, I've grown cold, colder than before when I see you or look at situations now. But deep down, I know, I still want to be as close to you as before.. So that I'll be able to cherish you once more. Then again, time never turns back. Thus, it has become so hard for me to face such situations. Memories flash back, causing tears. Yet, I just don't know where I've gone wrong to make us come to this state. Is that why being 16 didn't matter as much now? Time to grow up, Tash. I'll probably do my Sweet 16 post, sooooon.

Thirdly, I'm up on internship! Hiphiphooray! Things began shaky, but yeah almost everything's getting right. Today, I spent the first 1/4 day of freedom, going out with D to watch Sister's Keeper. Kind of enjoyed the movie other than for the super emo cinema. But yeah, touching alright. Really enjoyed myself though it was a short one.

Even as my exams have ended, the schedule's have kicked in! But yeah, its time to unwind and catch my breath before I start my internship and the trip to Bali. And yes its also time to spend quality time with the people i love, after neglecting them for months! Also, I've cleared up my entire room - its books & worksheets free! Great accomplishment and also a great way to start the holidays, :)

Be back here soon!

#90 Footprints? ... Or Hurt?

everybody leaves footprints once they step into your life but some leave deeper and bigger footprints. these people probably played a more significant role in your life, be it your first 'love' or your bestfriend. once these people walk out of your life, no matter what, it hurts. but time, will heal everything. you may not even think about the person in years to come by, but there will always be something that triggers the memories and you will probably realise that they never really left. they are always hidden somewhere, pushed right to the back of your heart. somehow, remembering them will bring a fresh bundle of pain. is it because you never really healed or is it because their footprints are still imprinted on your heart?

I want to say, so so so, many things.
They're just so many thoughts in my head
Yet, I'm afraid to do so;


'Cause it'll make my heart even colder.

--

@ 1033pm;

I'm sorry, S.
I guess there's so much I'm holding onto, that caused me to tear myself down like this.
Thanks for allowing me to just pour,
despite it being more tears, love.

& A,
You never seem to make me smile,
despite the times where I feel like "urgh",
you've been there.
& i do appreciate you for that.