#110 Internship

I'm very sorry for the lack of updates. I've been real busy, hectic chaos as well as tired. I've began my internship at the Kindy on the 28th of December. It started out with lots of shorting and clearing. All these were preparation work for the new schooling year. Rooms were cleared and yes, it resulted in a body ache and back ache. None the less, I survived the week of prep work for the children who were returning to school the following year.

The following week was the week the nightmare began. The children's first time seeing me, as well as facing lots of crying children which resulted in lots of pacifying to do. The children became very sticky yet, I "won" them somehow I guess. I loved the moment when I talk to a child and the child calms down and stops crying. That feeling's beyond description. I met more Sunshine classes. Totally love Sunshine 5, 6, 7! All my favourites, especially Sunshine 7. S7 has the 2 extremes, the hyper active as well as the completely sticky ones. And it made my learning a better one.

I learnt how to handle children and how to create a bond and love for them. Today, I see many situations where they did, small actions to make me smile. The first was Han See, coming down the stairs and smiling with her hands wide open to hug me. Following days after was Evan, who wanted to sit with me at B&J's and gave me a kiss. The next day, Faith Goh said, I like you, can you come to my class? ... with a hug and lastly today, Vicky stopped the car, sticked her head out to say byebye today when she saw me. Such actions really made my day.

Well, its not that all easy. Children threw up on me, nose bled, vomit, saliva only took its place on my blouses. But it has all in all been an enriching experience, loving children more and really enjoying the time that I have remaining with them. I really like how they try to make me smile and how I feel the connection I have with them.

This week I've been stationed more or less at the Dew Drops area, instead of Sunshine. Some children are fine, others are not. Lots of carrying of children which resulted in sore arms. None the less the amazing thing now is that I'm stationed at different DD classes everyday and many who remember me, from other classes would come to the door, just to say hello to me.

I guess such actions make me feel appreciated. As well as to spread more love to the children. One thing to say before I end, Without Jessie life here would be pointless. :)

Thank you Jesus for opening this door to me!

#109 A Whole New Beginning

Happy New Year!

Its kind of scary thinking how fast time actually flies. I really hope this year I'm able to keep close relationships instead of straining them. I really don't want to keep trying salvaging relationships that can't be saved anymore. I should spend more time building relationships to those who I know are close to me. 2010 feels a very uncertain year. My results, My commitments, my responsibilities, people and everything. Some part of me wishes that at least I can have a glimpse of the future - to know where I'm heading to or what I'll be doing in the future.

My biggest fear is tripping over wrong decisions and falling into my own grave. But at the same time I know, I'm big enough to make decisions and if its a wrong one, I'll have to live with it and its regrets. At the same time I know, everything's in God's hands and I have to just keep trusting me and asking Him to make all the situations clear so I know which door closes, and which door opens further.

I'm hoping for the best - with the results in 10days time. There isn't any point crying over spilled milk. Face it, I've done by best. I've studied. I don't want to keep worrying about everything under the Sun because it makes everything worse. Whatever the result, I'll choose to thank God for it because I know it was Him who gave me such results and I'll glorify His name.

Another new beginning would be joining St.James. I've realised in one way or another, children is my gifting and children ministry's my calling. Their smile puts a smile on my face. I hope to touch young lives in any way possible and so that I'll be able to reach out to the little ones and really bring them joy. St.James gave me that opportunity which I'm very grateful for. I've been opened into doors I thought would never open. I'm doing things I never believed I could do. The people are wonderful, & I feel so at home just being there.

I hope I'll be able to learn as much from this exposure and really make a difference in both the children's life as well as the staff. They're just a wonderful bunch of welcoming people. I'll talk more about my day 1&2 on the job, tomorrow.

Till then, have a good night
and here's wishing you a blessed new year!